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Life does not always go in the way you want them to be.. Obviously..

Yesterday was a tough day for me..

First of all, I slept until 12pm.. Once i woke up, I ate both my lunch and breakfast together!

Then, I spent my day going out here and there~

Evening, I phone to A.. Time of call was 50++ minutes, but I think i only talk for 5++ minutes.. Because, i'm speechless, too shocked to know what should I say.. I always thought that I was helping her.. But in the end, I was giving her even harder time to make decision.. Sometimes I wonder, how come I'm so blind of my own shortcomings? I keep on influencing her when I told others not to.. I keep on giving advices that is not neutral.. I am bias.. Now I know, I'm never talented to become a counsellor.. I failed to point out a correct path.. Then I know, what a lousy friend I was.. But I guess, I've learned my lesson from this incident.. That I'll know more about becoming a better friend.. Sorry for what I've done~

Then, it's the choosing uni thing that make me even more headache.. Due date is in june, but maybecs people advise us to make up our mind before april? which is only 2 more days left.. It wasn't that hard initially, but now, I find it super tough to deal with.. there is just too much factors that i have to take into consideration.. And this decision that I'm struggling to make, will affect the rest of my uni life and even the rest of my life.. It's not just something easy which you can make decision by just following your heart.. It's more than that..

Somehow, I wish, there is someone there to help me out of this mess.. but I know, I have to be independent, at least for once.. As this is not something that others can help out with.. I guess I've been dependent on my friends too much that I lost my ability to work on my own.. Let's find back myself.. Me..