Secret Santa

Conygre Y5 has organized a SECRET SANTA~ And it has been carried today before the Christmas meal. I didn't joined the Christmas meal though, sorry~ But here's what I got from my Santa!

And FYI, we didn't get to know our Santas even after the event de! But of course, if you wanna tell the person that you're his/her Santa, by all means.

Going to have another secret santa this Friday~ =)

Alone

I'm on my own, aren't I?

I realise that. Everyone has their own troubles. I just want to find someone to talk about my anxiety and worries. I just want someone to say something nice and comforting. I was trying to be nice but in the same time I know I'm troubling other parties.

I'm talking to 3 persons now but I know I'm facing this all by myself. They have better things to worry about.

Sigh.

Did my hair gone grey or silver?

Did I look older now?

I want to go for badminton. I want to relax. I want to de-stress.

A post before I go and bathe and cook my dinner.

Just came back from town.

Initially, I was going to join a community litter picking service to help keeping the city clean. But, we were late and we don't have the person-in-charge's phone number. A big mistake, so next time, I would say, be really punctual(I seriously don't

think bringing in Malaysian's habit of being late to UK is something good) and be sure to have the organizer's contact number so that in any case, we still can ring up.

But the bright side of this incident will be, we can go for shopping! Finally got something for the 2nd secret santa that I'm participating. It's all fated to be. You guys will have a better idea of what I'm crapping about when everything is being revealed next week. hehe. Then, we went on to buy ingredient's for tonight's cookies, next Friday's cake and next Saturday's rice ball. Gosh, we're cooking a lot nowadays, aren't we? haha.

Anyway, these are not really the main point of my post.

I was thinking, again, before I sleep last night.

How much have I changed since I came here? (Exclude physical changes of course, I know I have gained weight.) Did I really change in person? I want to know an answer, so that I can accept it when I get to know people around me has changed. Well, I know nothing is permanent and I know I should accept the fact that everyone will change. I just need some time to adjust to that change. Or perhaps, nothing really changes. Maybe I'm the one who has changed and therefore I see things differently now and thought that they have changed. Confusing enough? Nevermind that. At least I know that the changes are towards the good. I should be happy for that.

Just a picture that I love, to end this post.

Au revoir~

p/s: Looking forward for Christmas!

=)

Looking forward to Friday's feast!

Yeah~ Happy~ Know why? My essay is safe~

I heard people asking wha? what happened?

To cut the story short, we have assignment(an essay) to hand in by last Friday. I handed in on Friday morning and thought that it's done. Then, I happily enjoy my weekend in London. In fact, it was a really really leisure and happy weekend know? Anyway, back to the story. Then, when I'm back in Bath on Sunday, I checked my hotmail, my facebook, my Moodle and lastly, my webmail. A BIG MISTAKE for not really checking my mails in London back then. Apparently, the format of my essay is not compatible with the format required by the university, ie: Not in Microsoft word 2003 version. Hence, the lecturer actually asked me to re-upload my essay on Friday itself. But due to my ignorance, I didn't do so. On Sunday, with the help of Carol, I managed to convert my document to the correct format but there isn't any way for me to re-upload the essay since it's well past the due date. Dead panic. I emailed the lecturer and impatiently waited for his reply. Luckily there were a few of us, so I'm not that scare. But in short, it hasn't been a good start of the week for me. We've been going to his office a few times to meet him in person and discuss with him regarding this matter. However, he's not in! Then, today after my lectures at 12.15pm, Carol and I went again to try our luck. *think Carol brought me luck?haha* And guess what? HE'S IN! The door was opened and I admit, I'm a little bit scare~ But anyway, I just went in and tell him everything. He's going harsh on me in the beginning, and it's really harsh. He even told me off and say he'll not do anything to help me out! That really scared me. But luckily, it's only some of his tricks of scaring the students so that next time they'll be more careful and really go according to the instruction. So yea, he asked me to come back half an hour later and check things back. Half an hour later, I went there again with another 2 friends of mine who have the same problem as me and 20 minutes later, everything is settled! A few marks will be deducted though but hey, at least our essays are accepted! So I'm being really grateful now!

So one problem is off and it's a beautiful week after all~ haha. Oh ya, I'm officially an o2 user now but I'll be retaining the same number so that I can save all the trouble of informing every party. Yeah Yeah~

And what's next? We're going to have a big feast this coming Friday!! Quite a number of us are actually trying to attempt Malaysian Food know? Like Aqilah, she's making cucuk pisang!! And Cheok Ee and I, we'll be doing Nasi Lemak(Without sambal though) and curry! Hooray x3. I'll try making a real Nasi Lemak WITH sambal next time! and maybe Laksa? haha.

I've finished attending all 10 dancing lessons yesterday. I've learned some Waltz, Quick step, ChaChaCha, Jive and perhaps a bit of the Foxtrot. Still considering whether or not to continue learning in Sem 2. Hmph~

After today, I wouldn't be having any French assessments! Yeah~

After this week, I'm done with all the essays and just left with 3 more assignments- Statistics, Analytic and Ethics.

After this week, it's the last week of my sem 1!!!! And then, IT'S HOLIDAY~ Hooray x5! LOL.

My post looks so messy and of no order. Bear with me, I'm just being really excited when I'm posting up this. haha.

p/s: Sorry to BAMSA for not attending the Christmas Dinner last night. I know you guys have put in a lot of effort and money into that. But I'm just not in the mood of going out last night. Sorry! =/

Get out of dark cloud

Hi everyone, I'm back~

Sorry for making you guys worry, I've just being moody due to lots of factors, will tell you guys what's bugging me soon~ hehe..

Anyway, I'm going downtown later on to get the ingredients for this Friday's feast! And getting something to my Secret-santee(? what do you call those that you're a Secret santa to?) I'm getting toothpaste, toothbrush, fruits, another clothes perhaps? hehehe..

Just a short update to say that,

I'M FINE NOW!

Thanks for all the concern! =)

Inertia

My inertia is too high.

I'm so possessive.

I have very very bad side of me.

And now,

I wanna bury myself into work.

Stop facebook,

Stop MSN,

Stop internet,

Stop thinking.

Stop myself.